baby toddler girl is starting daycare this week.
Two and a bit years ago, I was sitting on the floor, cramps going up my arm as I reached through bars of her cot trying, in vein to pat her to sleep. Then all I wanted was for her to sleep through the night. About 18 months ago she took her first steps and I was thinking how good it would be when she could run around and play on a scooter. About a year ago she said “daddy” and I couldn’t wait until we could have a conversation.
Yes I know… I have a tendency to “cast my mind forward”. You could say that sometimes I find it hard to be satisfied with anything because I’m already getting excited about the next event/milestone/activity that’s coming up next. It’s not always a bad thing. I’m pretty goal orientated (not necessarily the right goals) and once I’m locked in on something I’m pretty good at getting there (unless something better comes along and then I’m pretty good at getting there instead – you get the picture).
The problem I’ve found with having kids is that I’m getting exactly what I want. I wish my daughter can walk around a shopping center rather than need a pram – done. I’m sick of changing nappies and the next minute we’re toilet trained. Wonder what it would be like to have my little girl be able to have a two way conversation and before you know it, I get a minute by minute summary on today’s Peppa Pig marathon. Not only am I getting what I want, but it’s happening… quickly. Two months ago blocks were missiles, now we’re building farmhouses. At the end of last year we did toilet training, tonight she let me know that I could leave the bathroom because “I’m ok to do it by myself daddy”.
It’s been an ongoing theme on this blog to talk about the changes that I’ve witnessed so apologies to my two readers who are having to read another “proud dad” post. If it’s any consolation, this time its a bit different. I’m starting to realise that I need to start living a little bit more in the now because whatever the now is, it won’t be this way for long. Before I know it my little girl will be going to school, then staying at friends houses, then getting a mobile phone, ears pierced, driving license… finishing high school.. (ok, so I may be getting a little ahead of myself but you get the idea)
So I’m going to try to live in the now a little more, and worry about what coming next a little less. And to little miss 2.5 – have a great day first day – daddy thinks you’ll make an awesome architect.
Are you happy to stay in the now or do you find yourself wishing the time away? Do you think the pace of change is different for a SAHM than a weeknight, weekend Dad?
As always, sharing my Tuesday with essentiallyjess for #IBOT.